Sep 7, 2008

Instead of going crazy I'm....

So, you could say that I am finding new ways to entertain myself in this hospital. Ways I am trying to keep my sanity. For example, If I am alone in the elevator I like to dance around hideously. My husband will be the first to tell you all of my hideous dancing. Don’t get me wrong, as a dance teacher I should know how to dance, but sometimes I can’t help but dance like William Hong (I’m sure you forgot all about him). As sad as the days can be here, I force myself to dance in the elevator and it always makes me feel better.

I talk to EVERYONE, and by everyone, I mean I talk to people who do not speak English. We have been roomed with a few Spanish speaking families and I have taken every opportunity to brush up on my Spanish skills. For some reason I have zero inhibitions when it comes to speaking Spanish. My husband speaks Spanish on a daily basis and for some reason I feel like his bilingualism transfers onto me. Everything I learned in Mexico has long left my brain. Luckily the friends I have made are very patient with my constant second guessing of what verb form I used. I was able to “interpret” many random things for my friend to the nurses. Often times we wound up laughing because of what I thought she said… good times! She is gone now… most of our original roommates are long gone. Our latest roommate was a sweet little guy who just had his Fontan procedure. There are so many sweet little babies with HLHS.

I eat out side in a little courtyard with a seagull (wow, that sounded depressing). This seagull is Crazy, and looks crazy too. He lands right next to me and waits for me to throw him some food. His beak looks like someone bent the top and bottom in opposite directions. I like him because he is not afraid of anything, and literally comes within inches of the food. He is a picky eater.. Probably from getting fed so frequently. I try to get a roll to feed the other little birdies, but the seagull will have none of it. What bird doesn’t like bread??

Besides my time spent in the elevator and with Crazy beak my hours are spent in a rocking chair holding the little one. Not much has changed. She is now on nitrogen, and they are weaning her Morphine drip. She now has regular doses of Ativan for the discomfort. She is still seven and a half lbs, but they assure me she is getting the nourishment to keep her brain developing.

We are holding strong!

12 comments:

Katie said...

Mimi,
I'm up to pump (still at it) and feed Maddie so I like to check up on you to see any new news...You are not crazy, just coping and finding ways to distract yourself from what you have to see and experience on a daily basis, much of it is hard to swallow at times. I so admire your humor in the hard times!!! Being at Children's has been one of the best and worst experiences of my life (I hope that made sense). Your strength is amazing and my prayers are constant for little Mia to get that heart. Keep holding strong, it's going to be any time now.

So glad you got a blanket...hope it's snuggly and brings some color to the room! Take care of yourself and give that precious baby girl a hug for me.

Love,
Katie

Lauri said...

I love your craziness! It so good that you are still so silly. It keeps a person "sane"! I check your blog often to see how Mia is doing and I am so impressed at how often you guys update it! Where is Mia in terms of # on the donor list? I know that there are several babies that are in need of a heart there, correct? Every time I am at the Y one of your dancers parents ask me about how everything is going and say to send their best wishes. So keep in mind all of your dancers are praying for you too.
We love ya
Lauri

jayna said...

I've done crazier things under much less stressful circumstances, so consider yourself SANE. We sure love you guys and think/pray for you often. It's amazing what this blog thing can do!

anniewalkfam said...

Oh Meems. You are definitely not crazy, just creative! Your strength is amazing! Keep being silly. "they" say that when you smile even if you don't feel like smiling your brain releases those endorphins that make you happy so keep being crazy to make yourself laugh! Pretty soon you guys will be the roomies leaving the others behind! ;) love you.

Erin said...

Meems! I think you have great coping skills, and you aren't crazy at all! Just the fact that you can dance crazy in an elevator and make yourself smile is a great sign! I can't help but feel grateful that you are there to rock your baby all hours of the day....minus the lunch break with your crazy seagull friend. Mia is so lucky to have you as her mom. You are amazing! Keep holding strong! Are you going to make it to Boonie's wedding? (I'm assuming not, for obvious reasons). Micah is going, and I'm considering meeting her up there for the weekend. I would love to see you and give you a little surprise. Let me know!

Brittany Osborn said...

I wonder if there are cameras in the elevator. If there are, you are making someone else have a good day too! :) I didn't know there were cameras in an elevator at Disney Land when I was 14 and did something pretty embarrassing - at the top when the door opened I could see myself on the screen walking out of the elevator and three people had been watching it and now were watching me come out. Oh great times....

Rebecca said...

Girl...it rings a little "terminalish" as in the Tom Hanks movie...I like it. Why don't you remodel the joint or something?

That's my lighthearted response. I'll stop there. Keep holding strong!

The Eggett Family said...

I'm glad you are making the most out of the situation - I wish I could be a fly on the wall and watch you dance in the elevator :)

I bet you are the highlight of that crazy seagulls day!!!

I'm glad to hear that Mia is holding strong and you too!

Keep up the POSITIVE attitude!

The Eggett Family said...

P.S. You are more than welcome to POST all you want on your blog to help keep your sanity - All your fans are checking often for updates and even the smallest little post just makes my day. Keep them Coming!!!

Jennifer said...

Keep dancing!

Rachel said...

Crazy Beak scares me. He is so not afraid of anyone or anything....he's not right! You are brave for eating with him every day.
Your post reminds me of that song, "I hope you dance" by some girl...I am terrible with music. I so wish I could see your crazy dancing...I am sure it would be a hit on U-Tube :)
It's been fun seeing a little more of you lately...I am glad Mia is holding strong.

Shila said...

I gotta try the dancing elevator thing. Crazy beak,wow, well, just look at him as Scuttle on Little Mermaid.