I had just finished putting Mia to sleep when the phone rang. The voice on the other end was Pam, one of the transplant coordinators. She proceeded to tell me that two letters from the donors family had come. I had sent a letter in December, knowing that they may or may not choose to write back.
As I read the letters I felt in my heart a sadness and Joy beyond anything I had ever felt before. For months, I wanted so desperately to know something about Mia's donor...something to hold onto. Now I did, and I will have these letters as a little piece of heaven to treasure. The letters I received were from the grandparents of Mia's angel. Their words were very sweet and sincere. Her angel was a baby boy...'a true joy to be with' according to his grandpa. They described what a happy baby he was, and how he was always smiling. This was so touching to hear because I am sure that much of that happiness transferred into Mia when that precious heart was placed inside her body. She is such a happy baby, and I feel that much of that Joy was an extra gift to her, and to us.
One sweet baby girl came into this wold with little hope of survival. One precious baby boy leaving this world gave her a most precious gift. He saved her life, and her life will be a testament of his joy. I feel like that sweet angel also saved my life, and gave to me, a miracle.
The letters are a treasure to me, and I have read them over and over. Each time feeling the sting of their loss, and the comfort of knowing his heart lives on.
This post has been written and erased multiple times, because words cannot describe how I feel. Someday I will meet the donor family and they will be able to feel their little boys heart beating inside of Mia. And hopefully, they will feel the gratitude I will always have for them.