...When I see Mia’s picture, I see my son. The bright smile, bright eyes, chubby cheeks, and the funny faces, they bring me to tears and I think about how she is the cutest thing on Earth. The way you talk about her is the way I talk about Jacob - loving, fun, full of joy. He was special to me, the best thing that had ever happened to me...
Jacob changed my life. The moment I held him I knew things were going to be ok. I felt a sense of joy that I had never felt before. He was also the only grandson out of seven grandchildren in my family. I was determined to be the best mother I could be.
After reading about her loss and grief I am taken right back to transplant day. It was such an emotional day because we were being so blessed, but I knew that in order for that blessing to come that someone would be suffering somewhere else. If I think about it for long periods of time it is almost too much for my soul to ponder on her grief. Jacob was taken from her and suffered a tragic loss of her beautiful baby.
My heart hurts. I know how much she misses him. Jacob's mother and grandparents loved him so much. Watching the videos was truly difficult. Such a sweet little boy smiling and giggling and crawling around. I wanted to reach through the computer and hold him and sing to him. He is our angel and we love him!
I can't wait to meet Jacobs family and let them hold and love Mia and hear that perfect little heart. She has so much love to share and I know she is holding out to give some of that love back to Jacob's moma. It is a heart so full of love and I know Mia will deliver that to her. She gets to be an honorary daughter to Jessica, and I feel a responsibility as she described to be the best mother I can be.
I showed Mia some pictures of Jacob and she kept saying: "oh Jacop!" then after she heard me tell the screen, "thank you sweet Jacob" she said, "tank you see Jacop." I told her about Jacob and pointed to her heart. I don't know how much she understood of what I told her, but she kept saying "tank you Jacob" over and over as if she knew who she was talking to and why she needed to say thanks. It was precious.
Here are some pictures of Mia's sweet baby donor Jacob. It's ok to cry if you need to. I sure did. His smile is precious in these pictures, and I know there are so many family members who miss him back home. I know you know this through recently correspondence with you all, but please know that we think of you daily and pray for continual healing of your hearts. I feel a strong bond that I think can only really be described and understood from me to you, Jessica...mother to mother. I have a firm belief in life after this one, and what a wonderful reunion it will be with all of us together again with our Angel Baby Jacob. We love him and we love you. Thank you again again and again for giving our daughter the most precious gift of life.
Our precious little Angel