I was told by someone recently, "you're heaven." I don't know why, but it completely made my day. I just felt like it was something I needed to hear especially because I feel like I am the opposite of heaven. I am definitely living the opposite of Heaven. I have never heard this said to anyone before, and I think it is such a wonderful thing to say.
After tucking the compliment into my heart I thought about what I believe is heaven. My children are heaven. HEAVEN! All of them.
I wish that I could visit Heaven. Wouldn't that be lovely... if we could just visit? It would still be awful not to have her here being adorable, but at least I could see her and breathe her in for awhile.
Mia is Heaven. Every little thing about the girl is Heaven. She has always been heaven, and I was convinced she was Heaven the moment I first held her. Now that my little Heaven is in Heaven I have to scramble everyday to remember the perfect Heaven I had with all of my children here. I was looking through pictures for my mom to send to my grandma, and I ran across these. It's like this beautiful song starts playing in my heart when I see her face. I think for my birthday I will spend the day watching home videos. When I see her little face I get a little slice of Heaven.
If only I had recorded a few moments of my kids everyday. I just miss that little peanut so much. so so so much. If I go down in history it will most likely be for missing my daughter who is in Heaven, and not for "being heaven." I will take this perfectly timed compliment and hope someday I can believe him.