May 17, 2013

Extra Broken

I must be extra broken 
I have been consumed by grief today
Why does my mind torment me so?
The constant desire to have her here
The wishing somehow it wasn't true
Discouragement at it's best
Reliving the tragedy
Unable to escape the mistakes
The weight is crushing
Bargaining with my future
Trying to find her
Heart unsettled and never at rest
searching for peace
All of my hope and dreams adjusted
Missing one child from my arms
Needing relief
Holding fast to the pain

Today I wonder if I am extra broken?
Did I come predisposed to not coping well with disappointment?  
I mean life shattering heart break? 

I know many of you and your prayers have rescued this extra broken mama time and time again. 
Thank you!